September 20, 2016

My Sweet Daddy...

Oh what an emotional journey this has been. 
 I have so many emotions going through me at the moment I can't even describe them.  

My father who has been battling gastric cancer for the last three months has been sent home to hospice care.  I don't even know what to say about that except that I'm full of sorrow and dread at what lies ahead.  He put up a good fight and I am so proud of him but unfortunately the tumor proved to be too aggressive.  What a horrendous disease it is.  I hate what it's done to his body and I hate what it's done to our family.  It's taking a precious soul away from us in such an awful way.  

I'm keeping this short because I'm finding it hard to express myself.  I traveled to Kansas last week to be with him and I just came home on Sunday night to check on my family.  Now I'm heading back to be with him again.  

I think grief comes in waves.  Sometimes I am able to control the tears and I think I'm alright and handling it well and other times the tears just flow and it feels like my heart will burst. 
I pray for grace to see us through this.  He's been so brave through these hard days.  I'm so proud to call him my father.  


19 comments:

  1. You are in my prayers Beca. Take care.

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  2. Aw you lovely sweet person, you will get through this and you are so right grief certainly does come in waves. Take care x

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  3. How dreadful for you all, hang onto precious moments when you get them xx

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  4. God bless you and your family with strength and comfort. I've been through it with my mother-in-law and my uncle so I do know how hard it is to watch them fade away. Take care of yourself.

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  5. I know it hurts right now. But when my Dad was very ill, I fought to get him out of hospital and into a caring hospice. He knew he was in a better place and was calm and comfortable. It was the best thing for him.

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  6. Hello Beca, I am truly so sorry to hear about your dad. I will pray for you, your dad, and family.

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  7. Sorry to hear this news, whatever happens you will come through this and you and your father will find the strength to get through this xxx

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  8. So sorry for such sad news. My prayers are with you and him. I've been there with my father just a few years ago. Not cancer, but congestive heart failure and just waiting. Was nothing they could do to keep the fluid drained. He was 92 at the time, and 2 weeks before was in perfect health and mind. My thoughts are with you.

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  9. Sorry to hear about your dad. May God give you the strength and courage to go through this difficult phase of your life. My thoughts are with you.

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  10. Hugs and prayers to you to give you the strength to get through this. I watched my mother suffer through cancer as well, and there's nothing worse than watching those you love most suffer like this. Your dear Dad, to have you by his side is going to be his biggest comfort.
    Wendy

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  11. So very sorry to hear such sadness, it is so hard to watch a loved one, especially a parent going through such horrible things. Hugs and all good thoughts to you and your dad. xx

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  12. I am very sorry too. I HATE cancer and I know how devastating it can be. I'll sure keep him in my prayers. Sweet hugs, Diane

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  13. I'm so sorry to hear this, Beca. Having you close will bring your dear Father sweet comfort during this difficult time, I'm sure. Sending hugs and prayers. xx Karen

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  14. I'm beaming you strength and love Beca.
    I have been in your place.

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  15. All my well wishes are being sent to you and your father. I hope you will be able to spend these precious moments with him as they will have to last a lifetime for you. My father went through a similar situation and walked into the doctor's office on a Friday. He called me that night and we had a sad, but cherished conversation as the doctor had told him he had 6 months to live. The next morning my daughters and I were at his house by 9 am and he didn't know us and couldn't walk. He died the next night. I think he chose to leave this world on his terms, and I'm telling you this so you will be aware that you need to capture moments now while you can. My heart is with you.

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  16. Oh Sweet, Sweet Beca, I continue to pray for you and your family at this most difficult of times.
    Much love to you Dear Friend,
    Danette

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  17. Hi Beca...nice to visit ,is been a long time. It is a blessing to have your daddy around,I have to travel to go and see mine....I did back on May and we had a good time...both my mom and daddy.God bless you together wit your family. Hugs.

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  18. Dear Beca, you are in my prayers.
    Love

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